Yes, if you can remember I have used the title "Texas failed kindergarten" once before. Well, let's just say Texas just keeps failing.
In the morning I leave the house with jeans, tennis shoes, a long sleeve shirt, a jacket, and possibly my letter jacket as well. By the end of the day, I wished I was in shorts and a t-shirt. It's the middle of November. Make up your mind already!
If there's one thing I hate about Texas, actually this is probably the only thing, it would be the bipolar weather.
Is it too much to ask to just be cold and stay cold? We also would like some snow...
November 15, 2011
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November 6, 2011
Lesson #82: "Make 'em laaaugh, make 'em laaaaugh, don't you know everyone wants to laugh?"
Today I am thankful for laughter. Besides sleep, laughter is the best medicine to any situation. I am thankful that God gave us laughter, because if we didn't laugh, this world would be a pretty boring place...
This post is short, but I don't think it needs more words.
What did the triangle say to the circle?
"You're pointless."
This post is short, but I don't think it needs more words.
What did the triangle say to the circle?
"You're pointless."
November 4, 2011
Lesson #81: Safety First
Today, I am thankful for safety. And seat belts.
At about 3:30 PM today, an ACU bus carrying twelve students, three faculty members and the spouse of one faculty member, representing the Department of Agricultural and Environmental Science, crashed near Runnels County. Only one fatality has been confirmed, the bus driver was unharmed, and the rest were severely injured. This was an Ag group on their way to Medina, TX to help the kids at the Medina Children's Home. President Phil Schubert and others from ACU are headed to the different hospitals to console with the students and families as they arrive.
If you're reading this, stop what you're doing and say a quick prayer for the students and faculty involved in the crash, and pray for the families of those students, especially the two families who lost their children. Thank God for the guardian angels He sends our way everyday.
This is a picture taken at the scene. Please please please keep this people in your prayers. The top of the bus was completely ripped off. Please wear your seat belts from now on. I know I am.
At about 3:30 PM today, an ACU bus carrying twelve students, three faculty members and the spouse of one faculty member, representing the Department of Agricultural and Environmental Science, crashed near Runnels County. Only one fatality has been confirmed, the bus driver was unharmed, and the rest were severely injured. This was an Ag group on their way to Medina, TX to help the kids at the Medina Children's Home. President Phil Schubert and others from ACU are headed to the different hospitals to console with the students and families as they arrive.
If you're reading this, stop what you're doing and say a quick prayer for the students and faculty involved in the crash, and pray for the families of those students, especially the two families who lost their children. Thank God for the guardian angels He sends our way everyday.
This is a picture taken at the scene. Please please please keep this people in your prayers. The top of the bus was completely ripped off. Please wear your seat belts from now on. I know I am.
November 3, 2011
Lesson #80: Tears of joy, tears of sadness.
Today I am thankful for tears. Whether they be tears of joy, tears of sadness, or tears of anger, tears help heal the heart. God gave us tears to express what we're feeling without the use of words.
When we're upset, we cry. When we're incredibly happy, we cry. When we watch or hear sappy love stories, we cry. When we're stressed out, we cry. (Girls cry more than boys, but hey, a hint to the fellas. Crying IS okay. It really does relieve stress sometimes). Tears are a part of life, God gave them to us for a reason!
"But smiles and tears are so alike with me, they are neither of them confined to any particular feelings: I often cry when I am happy, and smile when I am sad." --Anne Brontë, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall
When we're upset, we cry. When we're incredibly happy, we cry. When we watch or hear sappy love stories, we cry. When we're stressed out, we cry. (Girls cry more than boys, but hey, a hint to the fellas. Crying IS okay. It really does relieve stress sometimes). Tears are a part of life, God gave them to us for a reason!
"But smiles and tears are so alike with me, they are neither of them confined to any particular feelings: I often cry when I am happy, and smile when I am sad." --Anne Brontë, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall
November 2, 2011
Lessons #79: "Sunnnriiiiseee, Sunnnseeetttt.."
Today I am thankful for the sunrise, for another day. We have no clue what the future may hold. We know what we hope is going to happen, but only God knows what's going to happen in five minutes, two hours, five years, or a thousand years. Every morning when I wake up, my first thoughts are, "Why is it sooooo early?! Why do I have to be up right now?!" and then I remember I'm 18 and I have to go to school every day.
Then when I'm driving to school, I see the sunrise. I stop and marvel at the beauty of such a simple thing. One thing I love about living in Texas, it's a blessing and a curse, is the flat land. It may be flat, dry, and plain, but boy are the sunrises amazing. As you may have heard, "You ain't seen a sunrise until you've been to Texas." (However, Colorado comes in a close second I must say).
I am thankful for every day I'm alive. I sometimes take it for granted, waking up every morning. Seeing the sunrise on my way to school reminds me to thank God for giving me another day.
Then when I'm driving to school, I see the sunrise. I stop and marvel at the beauty of such a simple thing. One thing I love about living in Texas, it's a blessing and a curse, is the flat land. It may be flat, dry, and plain, but boy are the sunrises amazing. As you may have heard, "You ain't seen a sunrise until you've been to Texas." (However, Colorado comes in a close second I must say).
I am thankful for every day I'm alive. I sometimes take it for granted, waking up every morning. Seeing the sunrise on my way to school reminds me to thank God for giving me another day.
November 1, 2011
Lesson #78: I am thankful.
It's November 1st! ...Woah.
The month of November is a month dedicated to being thankful. (Really, we should always be thankful, but it's good to dedicate a whole month just to one topic).
Today, I am thankful for the wonderful, amazing, crazy, adorable, fun, incredible, and indescribable people in my life. Friends, family, teachers, famous people I don't even know, people I see everywhere that I don't know. I'm thankful for everyone! Whether you realize it or not, you create a relationship with every person you meet, even if it's only one encounter.
My friends are incredible. I don't know what I would do without them. I could go on and on naming those people but that would take up too much room. I have been blessed immensely with the friends God has put in my life. I know that if I needed any one of them, they'd be there for me in a heartbeat, and I'm do the same for them. I love them with all my heart!
My family. My family is INDESCRIBABLE. I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am for my family. My parents are the best, I know that I can go to them about any and everything at any time! They love me even though I mess up, and I know they always will. I have the most amazing big brother. He was always there for me when we were little, even though I was the annoying little sister. He always treated me like a big brother should and set a good example for me. He was my hero, and still is! I also have an awesome sister in law. I couldn't have asked for anyone better! She didn't see me as just her boyfriend's little sister. She saw me as a friend, and that meant a lot to me! So I approved, naturally. She's the best sister I could ever ask for! My grandparents, on both sides, are absolutely the best! They're each different in their own way and I love them so much! They set a good example and I really wish I could see them more often. My aunts, uncles, cousins, second cousins, fourth cousins, they're my favorite. I love them so much and I really wish I got to see them more! My whole family in general is amazing. I love them so much, and I feel incredibly blessed to be called a Hardcastle!
I have some pretty awesome teachers, not gonna lie. (And I'm not just saying that because my mom and dad are my teachers). My school is privileged to have some of the best people teaching us. My math teacher, Mrs. McConnell, is an amazing woman. She's like my school-mom. (Even though my mom is a teacher...). I can talk to her about anything and I love her to death! Mrs. Baker, oh I love her! And her children! That whole family is amazing. Mrs. Baker and Rosie bring such a light to our fine arts classes. They make it so much fun! Mrs. Robbins, well, she's just incredibly awesome. You can ask anyone, and they'll agree. Not every teacher keeps an axe and a sword on her wall. Granted, they're plastic, but still cool. And Mrs. Gilbreth. I know we all say we don't like what she gives us now, but I know we'll be thanking her later in college when we're the only ones who know how to write a research paper! I love those people, and I'm so glad they're teaching me.
Sooooo I know it's weird to be thankful for famous people I don't even know, but really, it's not weird at all actually. People like Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King Jr, Christopher Columbus, Michael Jackson, and Steve Jobs are good examples. They all changed the world in some way or another. Ghandi promoted love and peace, as well as Mother Theresa. Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King Jr stood up for what they believed in, and will be remembered for it. Christopher Columbus helped discover America! Michael Jackson changed pop music forever, and will ALWAYS be remembered, even if he was a little weird... He was still incredibly talented. And Steve Jobs, the co-creator of Apple, created some pretty advanced technology that has helped the way people communicate and convey things to the world. Without these people, our world would look completely different.
Then there's those people you see everywhere, but you have no idea who they are. There's an elderly man who walks his dog around the Lunsford Trail at ACU every single night. I go running every night and I see him! Well it's been about a year since I first saw him, and now every time I see him, he says hi and encourages me. He tells me I'm doing great and to keep going. He may not realize what that really means to me for him to encourage me and motivate me to keep going. I don't know his name, or his story, and he doesn't know mine, but yet we have this relationship that I'm thankful for. I hate running sometimes, on those really windy or scolding hot days, but he comes around the corner just at the right time and tells me to keep going. And you know what? I keep going! It's the little things in life that really mean the most.
So take time today to remember those special people in your life that God has blessed you with. Make sure you thank God for those people, because He puts them there for a reason. We are all blessed with the relationships we have.
To whoever is reading this, I thank God for you. I thank God for the relationship we have and what a blessing you have been in my life. If I've never met you, well, I'm still thankful for you. :)
The month of November is a month dedicated to being thankful. (Really, we should always be thankful, but it's good to dedicate a whole month just to one topic).
Today, I am thankful for the wonderful, amazing, crazy, adorable, fun, incredible, and indescribable people in my life. Friends, family, teachers, famous people I don't even know, people I see everywhere that I don't know. I'm thankful for everyone! Whether you realize it or not, you create a relationship with every person you meet, even if it's only one encounter.
My friends are incredible. I don't know what I would do without them. I could go on and on naming those people but that would take up too much room. I have been blessed immensely with the friends God has put in my life. I know that if I needed any one of them, they'd be there for me in a heartbeat, and I'm do the same for them. I love them with all my heart!
My family. My family is INDESCRIBABLE. I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am for my family. My parents are the best, I know that I can go to them about any and everything at any time! They love me even though I mess up, and I know they always will. I have the most amazing big brother. He was always there for me when we were little, even though I was the annoying little sister. He always treated me like a big brother should and set a good example for me. He was my hero, and still is! I also have an awesome sister in law. I couldn't have asked for anyone better! She didn't see me as just her boyfriend's little sister. She saw me as a friend, and that meant a lot to me! So I approved, naturally. She's the best sister I could ever ask for! My grandparents, on both sides, are absolutely the best! They're each different in their own way and I love them so much! They set a good example and I really wish I could see them more often. My aunts, uncles, cousins, second cousins, fourth cousins, they're my favorite. I love them so much and I really wish I got to see them more! My whole family in general is amazing. I love them so much, and I feel incredibly blessed to be called a Hardcastle!
I have some pretty awesome teachers, not gonna lie. (And I'm not just saying that because my mom and dad are my teachers). My school is privileged to have some of the best people teaching us. My math teacher, Mrs. McConnell, is an amazing woman. She's like my school-mom. (Even though my mom is a teacher...). I can talk to her about anything and I love her to death! Mrs. Baker, oh I love her! And her children! That whole family is amazing. Mrs. Baker and Rosie bring such a light to our fine arts classes. They make it so much fun! Mrs. Robbins, well, she's just incredibly awesome. You can ask anyone, and they'll agree. Not every teacher keeps an axe and a sword on her wall. Granted, they're plastic, but still cool. And Mrs. Gilbreth. I know we all say we don't like what she gives us now, but I know we'll be thanking her later in college when we're the only ones who know how to write a research paper! I love those people, and I'm so glad they're teaching me.
Sooooo I know it's weird to be thankful for famous people I don't even know, but really, it's not weird at all actually. People like Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King Jr, Christopher Columbus, Michael Jackson, and Steve Jobs are good examples. They all changed the world in some way or another. Ghandi promoted love and peace, as well as Mother Theresa. Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King Jr stood up for what they believed in, and will be remembered for it. Christopher Columbus helped discover America! Michael Jackson changed pop music forever, and will ALWAYS be remembered, even if he was a little weird... He was still incredibly talented. And Steve Jobs, the co-creator of Apple, created some pretty advanced technology that has helped the way people communicate and convey things to the world. Without these people, our world would look completely different.
Then there's those people you see everywhere, but you have no idea who they are. There's an elderly man who walks his dog around the Lunsford Trail at ACU every single night. I go running every night and I see him! Well it's been about a year since I first saw him, and now every time I see him, he says hi and encourages me. He tells me I'm doing great and to keep going. He may not realize what that really means to me for him to encourage me and motivate me to keep going. I don't know his name, or his story, and he doesn't know mine, but yet we have this relationship that I'm thankful for. I hate running sometimes, on those really windy or scolding hot days, but he comes around the corner just at the right time and tells me to keep going. And you know what? I keep going! It's the little things in life that really mean the most.
So take time today to remember those special people in your life that God has blessed you with. Make sure you thank God for those people, because He puts them there for a reason. We are all blessed with the relationships we have.
To whoever is reading this, I thank God for you. I thank God for the relationship we have and what a blessing you have been in my life. If I've never met you, well, I'm still thankful for you. :)
October 8, 2011
Lesson #77: Love is not a fight, but it's something worth fighting for.
Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
And then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
To some, love is a word that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us, if we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
I would fight for you, would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for.
(Love is Not a Fight by Warren Barfield)
This song came on Pandora and it hit me. What do we see love as? Do we take it for granted? Do we see it as something petty and naive? Or something passionate and real? Has the word "love" lost all it's meaning? I watch these movies like Tangled and my hopeless romantic self comes out and wishes that I could find my own Eugene Fitzherbert! I watch all these love stories and just wish that maybe my life could be like a Disney fairy tale, where every one lives happily ever after. Unfortunately, life is not a Disney fairy tale. But it IS a story, and everyone's is different.
"You're a teenager! You don't know what love is!" So, at what age does somebody REALLY know what love is? 30? 40? 50? Does anybody really and truly comprehend love? I may not "know what love is" but I do know the people that I do love and what I would do for those people. I know how to love somebody and how to show love to every one. Love is something that anyone can do. Whether you be 65 or 3 years old. Love is real and true, and probably one of the most difficult things in life. Love is something you have to work for. It's not easy. It's going to be really hard. But love is something that is worth it.
Love is not a fight, but it IS worth fighting for. Think about the people you in your life that you care about and love. Have you told them that lately? Even if you have, tell them again! Love is what makes the world go round. Don't take it for granted. Don't just throw around the word, because then it won't mean anything. When you tell somebody you love them, mean it. Be real about it. Love everyone. And love yourself. Because love is worth fighting for.
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
And then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
To some, love is a word that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us, if we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
I would fight for you, would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for.
(Love is Not a Fight by Warren Barfield)
This song came on Pandora and it hit me. What do we see love as? Do we take it for granted? Do we see it as something petty and naive? Or something passionate and real? Has the word "love" lost all it's meaning? I watch these movies like Tangled and my hopeless romantic self comes out and wishes that I could find my own Eugene Fitzherbert! I watch all these love stories and just wish that maybe my life could be like a Disney fairy tale, where every one lives happily ever after. Unfortunately, life is not a Disney fairy tale. But it IS a story, and everyone's is different.
"You're a teenager! You don't know what love is!" So, at what age does somebody REALLY know what love is? 30? 40? 50? Does anybody really and truly comprehend love? I may not "know what love is" but I do know the people that I do love and what I would do for those people. I know how to love somebody and how to show love to every one. Love is something that anyone can do. Whether you be 65 or 3 years old. Love is real and true, and probably one of the most difficult things in life. Love is something you have to work for. It's not easy. It's going to be really hard. But love is something that is worth it.
Love is not a fight, but it IS worth fighting for. Think about the people you in your life that you care about and love. Have you told them that lately? Even if you have, tell them again! Love is what makes the world go round. Don't take it for granted. Don't just throw around the word, because then it won't mean anything. When you tell somebody you love them, mean it. Be real about it. Love everyone. And love yourself. Because love is worth fighting for.
October 7, 2011
Lesson #76: Where have I been?
Well hello my friends. It's been awhile. And I'm terribly sorry for that. Life happened.
Where have I been?
Physically, I've been at school. Being involved with school things such as, well, the schoolwork (obviously), student council, choir, one voice, theater, ahhhhhhhhhh!! I barely have time to eat and sleep!
Mentally... Where have I been? I can honestly say I don't know. I've kept myself busy that I haven't just stopped. I haven't just stopped, and done nothing. I may have had a few breaks now and then, but when was the last time I literally just sat there and did nothing for longer than an hour? When was the last time I truly relaxed? When was the last time I opened my bible outside of school or church? When was the last time I actually cared to do so? I've let myself be so distracted that it didn't even occur to me that I hadn't sat down and read from God's word. I hadn't done something for somebody else. I hadn't prayed about it. I may have thought about it, but I was never proactive in actually doing it.
I became so consumed with life that I forgot to live.
Living is something that is debatable. To some, living is simply breathing and going through the motions every day. To others, living is doing what you enjoy. To me, living is everything. I'm a teenager. It's my last year of high school! I want to enjoy it, and be done with it! I decided I wasn't going to do sports so I could relax. Well, turns out I forgot how much time the other extra curriculars could take up. The past few weeks, actually the past couple months, I have been nonstop. Whether it be homecoming week or research paper, I was hardly ever home. I was either up at school or at the library. I knew what I needed to get done, and I got it done when I needed to. It's taken me a few months to realize that I seriously just need to stop. I'm not saying it's bad to be involved in various activities, but when your life is consumed with this and that, you might forget to actually live!
So live your life!
No, don't live it like it's your last day... Because if we all did that, all the banks would be broken into, everyone would go steal a sportscar, everyone would go skydiving, everyone would confess their undying love for someone, and then the next day we'd have to find something else to do all over again. No, I'm not saying that. What I'm saying is this:
Do what you enjoy, and don't let anybody tell you how. You are the captain of your ship, and only you can set the sails in the direction you want to go. Don't let others influence your decisions. Do what is best for you. Love everyone and don't judge too quickly! Love yourself, and think highly of yourself. Have a positive attitude in negative situations! Don't be overly positive, because that gets to the point when you become fake. Be yourself and be real. All the time. Not just when you're around certain people. Love everyone. If you love others, you will get love in return. Its not your place to judge others. If you disagree with somebody, don't tell them their opinion is wrong. Opinions aren't meant to be wrong or right. (Hence why they're called "opinions"). In disagreements, listen to the person. Listen to what they have to say, and understand their perspective. Respect them, and you will get respect in return. No judgin', just lovin'.
Life is hard, and it comes at you so fast that you don't even realize it until it's gone. I turn 18 on Tuesday. Wasn't I just starting to drive yesterday? I got accepted to ACU and I already have a roommate. Didn't I just start high school?
There's no easy button, but you are you. And don't let anything get in your way of living.
Where have I been?
Physically, I've been at school. Being involved with school things such as, well, the schoolwork (obviously), student council, choir, one voice, theater, ahhhhhhhhhh!! I barely have time to eat and sleep!
Mentally... Where have I been? I can honestly say I don't know. I've kept myself busy that I haven't just stopped. I haven't just stopped, and done nothing. I may have had a few breaks now and then, but when was the last time I literally just sat there and did nothing for longer than an hour? When was the last time I truly relaxed? When was the last time I opened my bible outside of school or church? When was the last time I actually cared to do so? I've let myself be so distracted that it didn't even occur to me that I hadn't sat down and read from God's word. I hadn't done something for somebody else. I hadn't prayed about it. I may have thought about it, but I was never proactive in actually doing it.
I became so consumed with life that I forgot to live.
Living is something that is debatable. To some, living is simply breathing and going through the motions every day. To others, living is doing what you enjoy. To me, living is everything. I'm a teenager. It's my last year of high school! I want to enjoy it, and be done with it! I decided I wasn't going to do sports so I could relax. Well, turns out I forgot how much time the other extra curriculars could take up. The past few weeks, actually the past couple months, I have been nonstop. Whether it be homecoming week or research paper, I was hardly ever home. I was either up at school or at the library. I knew what I needed to get done, and I got it done when I needed to. It's taken me a few months to realize that I seriously just need to stop. I'm not saying it's bad to be involved in various activities, but when your life is consumed with this and that, you might forget to actually live!
So live your life!
No, don't live it like it's your last day... Because if we all did that, all the banks would be broken into, everyone would go steal a sportscar, everyone would go skydiving, everyone would confess their undying love for someone, and then the next day we'd have to find something else to do all over again. No, I'm not saying that. What I'm saying is this:
Do what you enjoy, and don't let anybody tell you how. You are the captain of your ship, and only you can set the sails in the direction you want to go. Don't let others influence your decisions. Do what is best for you. Love everyone and don't judge too quickly! Love yourself, and think highly of yourself. Have a positive attitude in negative situations! Don't be overly positive, because that gets to the point when you become fake. Be yourself and be real. All the time. Not just when you're around certain people. Love everyone. If you love others, you will get love in return. Its not your place to judge others. If you disagree with somebody, don't tell them their opinion is wrong. Opinions aren't meant to be wrong or right. (Hence why they're called "opinions"). In disagreements, listen to the person. Listen to what they have to say, and understand their perspective. Respect them, and you will get respect in return. No judgin', just lovin'.
Life is hard, and it comes at you so fast that you don't even realize it until it's gone. I turn 18 on Tuesday. Wasn't I just starting to drive yesterday? I got accepted to ACU and I already have a roommate. Didn't I just start high school?
There's no easy button, but you are you. And don't let anything get in your way of living.
August 1, 2011
Lesson #75: July was a stressful month.
Hello everyone! I am so sorry it has been forever and a day since I have blogged. A lot has happened!
So July was a very... interesting month. I went through a lot that changed the way I looked at life. Like I've said before, I'm a very positive person. I like to look at the positive side of things (which sometimes can be annoying to some of my friends!) and I like to think in an optimistic way. I went into a slump when I found out I had Mono and would not be attending Wilderness Trek (and not just because I was physically drained). I was so angry at God. I thought things like, Why would He let this happen? He knows how much I look forward to Trek! How could this happen to me? Why would He do this to me?. I still don't understand the timing of things, but through those two weeks I was stuck at home, I realized some things. I did some "soul searching" if you will. I came to realize that there were things in my life that really just shouldn't have been there, and there were some things that weren't in my life that should have been! I prayed and prayed for God to show me what I need to do about it. I went out on a limb and everything turned out okay!
This past Saturday, my brother married his best friend and love of his life. I'm one of those people who cry at every wedding I go to, even if I hardly know the people getting married. I knew that I would cry like a baby at my brother's. And guess what? I did! I've never been happier for anyone in my entire life. I've never seen my brother happier than when the doors opened and he saw Whitney for the first time. It was an awesome day, shared with the most important people in my life.
Yesterday I filled out and submitted my first college application. It hadn't hit me until that moment that I was going to be a senior. I'm graduating in 291 days. I'm going to college. I'm going to be independent. And it scares me! I'm so excited, but it really scares me. I just don't know if I'm ready! I don't want to grow up! Yes, I'm ready to leave high school, SOOO ready. But to go to college? Away from my parents? From my friends? I still don't even know where I'm going to go! ACU? LCU? OC? So many decisions.
You know what my response is to all of these? Prayer. Whether it be a prayer of anger, a prayer of thanks, or a prayer of guidance, God is the only one who can give us the answers we need. Even if we don't understand at the time, He knows what He's doing. He's already planned everything out. Crazy, huh?
So July was a very... interesting month. I went through a lot that changed the way I looked at life. Like I've said before, I'm a very positive person. I like to look at the positive side of things (which sometimes can be annoying to some of my friends!) and I like to think in an optimistic way. I went into a slump when I found out I had Mono and would not be attending Wilderness Trek (and not just because I was physically drained). I was so angry at God. I thought things like, Why would He let this happen? He knows how much I look forward to Trek! How could this happen to me? Why would He do this to me?. I still don't understand the timing of things, but through those two weeks I was stuck at home, I realized some things. I did some "soul searching" if you will. I came to realize that there were things in my life that really just shouldn't have been there, and there were some things that weren't in my life that should have been! I prayed and prayed for God to show me what I need to do about it. I went out on a limb and everything turned out okay!
This past Saturday, my brother married his best friend and love of his life. I'm one of those people who cry at every wedding I go to, even if I hardly know the people getting married. I knew that I would cry like a baby at my brother's. And guess what? I did! I've never been happier for anyone in my entire life. I've never seen my brother happier than when the doors opened and he saw Whitney for the first time. It was an awesome day, shared with the most important people in my life.
Yesterday I filled out and submitted my first college application. It hadn't hit me until that moment that I was going to be a senior. I'm graduating in 291 days. I'm going to college. I'm going to be independent. And it scares me! I'm so excited, but it really scares me. I just don't know if I'm ready! I don't want to grow up! Yes, I'm ready to leave high school, SOOO ready. But to go to college? Away from my parents? From my friends? I still don't even know where I'm going to go! ACU? LCU? OC? So many decisions.
You know what my response is to all of these? Prayer. Whether it be a prayer of anger, a prayer of thanks, or a prayer of guidance, God is the only one who can give us the answers we need. Even if we don't understand at the time, He knows what He's doing. He's already planned everything out. Crazy, huh?
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